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Sunday, January 19, 2020

Fashion Friday...done Saturday Style

Yes, I am still getting dressed!  I have just been off schedule with getting photos to write about.  Today was a fun, dress down day to  have lunch, shop and spend time with my sweet girl Piper Ellice at Starting out Southern
Saturdays are always perfect for grabbing your favorite boots, a sweater and enjoying some girl time.

Friday, December 27, 2019

8 Years ago....

I don't know if this date will ever lose the significance it has in my heart.  It is a day I still remember vividly...actually with a bizarre level of detail.  It was the day I saw my child dying. It was a day I saw the faces of my other children in more pain than I could imagine as fear of losing some one so dear to them hit them truly for the first time  It was also the day my baby boy and I started our journey into this thing called Epilepsy and seizures and crazy diets and refusing toxic treatments.  It was a day that planted a fear so deeply inside me that I knew only God understood. I didn't know that my youngest son and I would, more or less, walk this journey alone but we haven't done so bad.

8 years ago, everything was unknown...would he be alive the next day or the next?  Would he be permanently changed?  How could I help?  There were no answers.

But, 8 years later, most of it spent as a single parent...I have gotten to witness first hand, and continue to see, the amazing young man he is becoming.  Just a few weeks ago I got to watch as he signed his commitment to his first choice college - after also being accepted into his #2 and #3 choices!  Honestly, 8 years ago I didn't know if that would ever happen.  He has worked hard and I am proud of him for not letting anything hold him back.

I know many of you have prayed over this young man and thank you is not near enough.
 I know God heard our cries. 
Thank you, God, for this child.

If you are interested in reading the raw story of the start of our journey these are the links ( you will have to click each link on this page as the connection links within the posts no longer work):


Wednesday, December 25, 2019

Merry Christmas VLOG Attempt 1!

I have been wanting write for several weeks but haven't bothered which ultimately turned out to be a good thing as what I would have written about, I now would wish I hadn't (READ: single girl shouldn't share) so instead I decided to jump on the  VLOG train with my "Christmas Card:"

Please tell me what you think about videos on the blog as I kind of want to explore it more but would like some feed back!  Thank you, dear blog are the best!

Before you go, though, let me share this as you contemplate your next move...

"Be a pioneer into illusion, an adventurer into the unknown, and a lifter of veils.  Be Courageous, heroic, and exalted by legions in the unseen.

Give beyond reason, care beyond hope,  love without limit; reach, stretch, and dream, in spite of your fears.

Your light illuminates darkened paths, your gaze lifts broken spirits, and already your life has changed the course of history... why stop now?"

Sunday, October 13, 2019

Back to Writing?

It is has really been a long time since I have stopped to write anything of any substance but the words have been taunting me lately, mostly in spurts in the car or when I am tied up with something and later I am too tired to capture them.

It has been a such a season of change (it seems it always is.)  My baby boy is experiencing his last year of high school with college in the cross hairs for next year.  I have almost melted down over this more than once; not because I don't want him to grow and go and experience all he was meant to but because I am selfish and fear life truly "alone."  I think about what it will be like to live without anyone coming home...just me and the dogs.  Yes, I know there are people who do it all the time and for years and years...but, honestly, I can't say I am looking forward to it.

Also, my current living situation is in flux as decisions about selling the house are in the air and although I try not to worry...worry comes.  If it were just me, it wouldn't be a bit deal; but it isn't just is my son and our two fur-babies. Oh, and I am one of those people who doesn't like not knowing the plan.  I like plans.

On top of that, there are a couple of other area that I am  uncertain about and so my anxiety has been  having a fun time lately.  That is frustrating as I have been without the anxiety for quite a while until just lately and it has returned.  Maybe it is just part of who I am and I need to relax about not being able to relax?

Ultimately, over the last week or so I have realized that the last 6 years of stress and change have finally caught up with me and I am tired.  I am tired of things being hard. I just think it has been too long holding up all the loose ends.  I am also tired of people saying, "Wow, you have it so together!" when they never stop to get to know that I don't and that sometimes I need help too.  It is like you get criticized if you don't have it together so you smile and make sure it looks all together while inside you are criticizing yourself.  Crazy, huh?

I long for normal (what ever that is???) I long for loneliness to go away. I long for my family.  I long for something more and something less....peace and security mostly.

Saturday, October 12, 2019

Friday Fall Fashion!

My Fashion Friday Posts dried up about the time I got sick and tired of the endless Summer we seemed to be facing and I was pretty much sick and tired of all Summer Clothes!  Finally this week, a tiny resemblance of Fall came calling and just in time for the first Oyster Roast of the Season!  So I pulled out my boots, jeans and my go to favorite Fall/Winter color, Winter White and made the best of the nip in the air.  

Of course, it is never a bad time to add a few pearls 
and my now beloved Sheila Fagl hoops and bangle!

 All I can really add is....welcome Fall....
you  have been missed and are so welcome to stay a LONG while!

A Very, Very, Very belated Birthday Wish....

How can my baby boy be 18?  How could I have not blogged it about it even in the month it happened?  It just seems time is flying by and I am trying my best to catch a moment or two of these memories.  In early September my dear son managed to turn 18 on the same day Hurricane Dorien decided to come for a visit.  Needless to say it kind of changed our plans for the day did not keep us from celebrating with the traditional Birthday Fancy Pie - oh, and he got his birthday off from school!

I just want to say that this young man amazes me with this wit, sharp mind and kind heart regularly.  He loves me but not near as much as I love him.  He and I have been through a lot together, shared more laughs that I can count, lots of adventures and even some tears but I am grateful for every moment together.  I am blessed. Happy belated birthday to my heart; may all your wishes and dreams come true!

Friday, August 30, 2019

Fashion Friday - Good Bye Summer (I just wish the heat were leaving!)

Well, today I decided I would celebrate the last of my "official" wearing of the white pants with a pop of color to end their season.  Why, of course, I don't wear white (except creamy winter white) after Labor Day!

And because we know truly is is all about the shoes, I pulled out a pair of my favorites:

So, there you have it...Fashion Friday and it is time to retire the white pants!