In the last 6 months, my husband took a new job in a new state, my daughter graduated high school, we left a town that we loved and had lived in for the better part of 10 years, we left a church and church family that was second to none, we moved into a new town, we have a new-to-us house that needs a big dose of TLC, we took my baby girl off to college and left her there(!!!) and my boys started a new school. Oh, and not to mention, I find myself basically living in a household full of males for the first time and far away from the majority of my girlfriends! Overall the changes are to be considered positive...but I am not really all on board with change, especially a lot of it!!!
The last few weeks, as we were preparing to take my daughter to college, have been -honestly- pretty hard. Beyond the surface changes that have gone on, I have struggled with this new season deep down. I don't feel old enough to send a child off into the world (albeit a college campus isn't exactly the world, but Mamas know what I mean). I still see myself as the Mom of children...small children...but I don't have any of those anymore. My youngest turns 9 in two weeks. See, I liked having little ones under foot. So, I am struggling to fit into my new season a bit. I feel blessed by my life, but as I look around, I am bit lost about where the next step is leading.
We have been visiting churches in our area, and although they have all been nice we aren't sure if we have found the right one yet. Because I am not plugged in right now, and I truly miss my Ladies Bible Studies, I have a book that I am going to start solo tomorrow. It is Praying for Purpose for Women by Katie Brazelton. It is laid out in a 60 Day format with a short study for each day. I think it will be nice to spend some time in prayer over what exactly God is calling me to do in this new season of life. "...you are only a steward of the personality, roles, and talents He has entrusted to you."
~ Katie Brazelton in Praying for Purpose for Women
